At my Wits End

Lately it seems that the world is completely against me. This whole summer has been a type of hell, and I'm wondering when the stress will finally make me collapse. I'm a fighter, yes, but there's only so much fight in a person.

This past week has definitely been a trying time with me in the work world, as well as with my patience. I nearly lost my job as a legal assistant due to one error that just had a domino effect. I couldn't believe me own stupidity in the event, and I take full responsibility. I can understand my employer's frustrations in the matter, and I would completely understand if she had followed through with her initial thought to let me go. The thing is: I'm still learning. I only JUST graduated from college, and our classes didn't cover every single document that I will be processing at work; however, this is no excuse. I should have covered my butt.

Now, I'm looking to enhance my learning in the legal field: personal study, overview of manuals and processes, asking questions, and being patient and thorough with myself.

I know I've said several times to myself (and to others) that I am not in pursuit of a relationship or involvement right now: I'm trying to focus on my career and theatre. That being said, it DOES kind of sting when a person you were involved with previously hands you the 'friend card'. I shouldn't be bummed out about it, but hey, who doesn't get a little upset when they're rejected even in the slightest. Oh well, better fish out there anyways.

Despite the happenings of this whole summer (relationship drama, car damage, moving incidents, job mishaps and anything else you can group with troublesome, depressing, and stressful), I DO have one highlight! I'm on an adventure to get my motorcycle license this week! As soon as that happens, I just pray that D has the patience enough to teach me to be an excellent rider. Can't wait for Black Beauty (BB) and I to let loose on the open road!

Until next time, let's just hope that my Fall will be much better than my Summer. First things first for the fall: Prince George trip with D, as well as reuniting with my cousin and his horses. You have no idea how excited I am.

-B