A term is at a close, a new chapter of life is about to begin. My world is such a whirlwind right now: School, work, relationship changes, theatre, and new found friendships. Can I step into the unknown with confidence?
About a month ago today my world came crashing down around my ears. The man I had spent the past year and eight months with started to turn distant, resorting to nasty and uncalled for means of coping with his stress. It turned into explosive fights, unexpected trips to the mainland (for stress relief), and an unaccounted for circumstance of having to move out (in a day, no less). The person I thought was my best friend, who I thought I was going to be spending the rest of my life, cut all means of trying to fix things. Granted, it was a two way street. Blame was pushed around, unfair statements were thrown from both sides. It was hard.
Now, life has been taking quite a turn. May 11th was my 21st birthday and the end of a show onstage. The 15th was a huge blow out with the (now) ex. The 21st of May was the finalization of our relationship. On June 2nd, I moved out of the place we leased together, putting myself in a dire financial crisis. Somewhere in there I met a guy who has become very close to me, and I also started a job at one of the local Starbucks.
Metamorphosis is a big thing for me. Change will always happen, but you can't determine what that change will be. You can't control it - it controls you. However, you can plan your life in the idea that change will happen. Your choices can forever set you on your course.
You'll hear more from me. I promise.
- B
